“I didn’t really think about what kind of dad I would be when I grew up because I didn’t think it was possible for me to grow up into a dad at all. Let alone a dad to five kids.” – brand strategist, father of 5, husband, transman @epicdanger.
Today we are featuring Nick (@epicdanger) and his family on our blog. Below is Nick’s story and journey to becoming the father he never knew he could be.
Nick North’s Journey:
“When I was a kid and I would stomp out of the room full of rage at my dad for whatever ridiculous dad thing he had done, I didn’t do that typical boy thing where they stomp their feet and mumble to themselves, “When I’m a dad I’ll never insert ridiculous dad thing here.” though.
I didn’t really think about what kind of dad I would be when I grew up because I didn’t think it was possible for me to grow up into a dad at all. Let alone a dad to five kids.
When I was born I was assigned female at birth. I lived the first 30ish years of my life in what I like to lovingly call “girl mode.”
I did all the things. I learned to always cross my legs, and wear nail polish, and got married to the nicest guy I could find, and had babies (4 of them to be exact) and was the very best mom I could be. (I’ve got pasta crafts to prove it.)
Until I couldn’t be the person in the costume anymore.
I couldn’t be the wife, the sister, the mom, the woman because I knew deep down I was meant to be the husband, the brother, the dad, the man.
Now I am that man. Now I am that dad.
I’m that goofy, coffee-fuelled dad who makes 1 of my 5 beautiful little humans stomp out of the room full of rage at me at least once a day.
What for, you may ask?
Oh, any number of those ridiculous dad things like making them shower, or wear more than a gymnastics leotard to school, or not letting them ride down the stairs in a laundry basket, or bathe their stuffies, AGAIN. You know those types of ridiculous things.
And every time I shake my head, throw my hands up in the air, and then thank the stars that I get to be the dad that makes them stomp out of the room filled with rage.
As a kid I didn’t know the word transgender. I just knew that I felt broken and whenever I would talk about it the grown-ups in my world felt uncomfortable, or told me I was wrong.
Now, not only do I know who I am, but I am celebrated and loved for it. I am a husband, a brother, a man and a dad with the very best family, and the most supportive friends that anyone could ask for.
Our family might be a little bit different than your family, but that’s what makes us beautiful. The secret is, that thing that makes your family different? That’s what makes it extra beautiful too.”
Thank you Nick for sharing your story with us!
You can learn more about Nick by checking out his website!
– The Love Child Organics Team